Creative.Control.

Literally I’m not just saying this because of an over exaggeration as if I drank to much last night, because I did not. 

But I realized many many  things last night. I honestly do not know why I started drinking other than my own curiousness. 

So this is pretty much an oath to myself and to my family that I keep getting hassled by that I’m pretty much done drinking. I’m not saying I will never drink again and that I won’t drink for a certain special occasions but very very seldom will I drink. Because I’m not going to allow myself to be hypocritical of myself and say I will never drink again because it will happen again. I’m not going to allow myself to drink every weekend for no purpose at all. 

I’ve spent well over $300 on just alcohol here recently, and that is completely ridicule of myself to even do that. I’m not saying I hate who I have become because having a drink with some friends can be fun. But I use to never drink and I still had as much fun. 

Plus last night I seen one of my best friends almost drink himself to death. He really stopped breathing for over 15 seconds and had body compulsions and mini seizures before dry heaving himself out of it. This opened my eyes and almost seeing my friend die for what?? Just a little fun. No that’s bullshit. And so this has changed my mind about a lot of things.